just some sad moments...

[HEINI]

heini and me went to the vet today, he has a little black spot on one of his toenails, so I wanted to let the vet have an eye on it. it is nothing serious, just a little dried blood scab from hurting himself while playing or so. she washed the paw very well with a lovely wellness-footbath and put some cream on the spot. me spending money again, because of beeing a clucking hen...

well this is why we were at the vet...

but what really REALLY bothers me, even now, hours later.
there was a lady there with me, she had a yorkshire terrier with here, in a little wooden basket, wrapped in a blankie. the little girl was very old and coughing badly. heini wanted to play with her, abut I held him back, that would have been too exciting for the little girl, but you could see, she was somehow interested still, even though she was so ill. I thought that was so sweet. she looked at heini all interested and you yould see, she once was a quite a hot chick amongst the boys. for a little moment, she had this light in her eyes

the woman was crying. she told me, her baby will have to be put down. she had her appointment after us.
when heini and me came out, it was her turn. I couldn't help myself and hugged her. i felt so very sorry for her and she was sooo sad. heartbroken.

this just doesn't let me calm down anymore. I feel sooo sad. and it makes me so frightend thinking about the day heini will have to leave. I can't stop thinking about it and it makes me cry.
well SILLY me, heini is well up and next week is his 6th birthday, so there is still sooo much time.
this meeting with the lady just showed me how MUCH we do love those little ones, how much they mean to us and what a big part they take in our lives.

the husband of that lady and the son, meanwhile were reading magazines and joking. well...everyone deals with such a thing differently, and I don't want to prejudge, but somehow I have the feeling that lady is at home, crying her heart out and son & husband are watching TV or something.

I will stop now, these emotions are taking overhand *g*
sorry, I just thought, if anybody will understand my thoughts, then it will be you, my friends.

[CeeCee's Mom]

Oh that is so sad. It is such a hard thing to do and you were so sweet and kind to her. I know what you mean by her husband and son, they should have been comforting her. Thank you for your sweet gesture, I know she will think of you when she goes home and your kindness.

Glad Heini is okay!!! That is your sweet special little man!!!

[theboyz]

We have been there and it is heart wrenching. You never get over it and only knowing that you are giving your baby a gift of a better place and free from pain helps the heart- ache a tiny bit.
Very sad.

[HEINI]

I am really, really scared of that day.
still I would want heini to be 'released' if it is time for that.

these thoughts are not good, but sometimes, they overwhelm me. sorry.

thanks for letting me share.

[drclee]

That poor lady and her poor baby. I would have been bawling along with her in the office. I can't even imagine the day I will have to say goodbye to Jack or Jill - I don't think I'll survive! And I know how much you love Heini - isn't it amazing how much love these little ones bring to our lives?

[Matilda's mommy]

It's so hard, I miss my Muffy so muchI prayed and prayed he would just go to sleep, but we had to help him go to the bridge. I know our babies are own loan for a time but I can't even let myself think of that day when Matilda goesyou can never be prepared. My heart goes out to that lady, I would have given her a hug also.

[HEINI]

Originally Posted by drclee

- isn't it amazing how much love these little ones bring to our lives?

you are so right. it is as if they wake up our heart from a deep sleep.

Originally Posted by Matilda's mommy

It's so hard, I miss my Muffy so muchI prayed and prayed he would just go to sleep, but we had to help him go to the bridge.

rest in peace little muffy.
you are a good and loving person, that is why you helped muffy.

[Maglily]

I can't imagine that day either with Jodi, although I went thru this with my cat Maggie last year, it was not easy. Try to remember that that little dog had a wonderful life with her mom. I guess you will never forget her and she won't forget you either. For me at least just knowing it was the best thing for Maggie brought me some peace and it was the only choice I could make.

I think I would tend to feel the same way about the husband and son but they did go there with her so that's a good sign.

[nostresstoday]

We had Tasha our poodle for 16 years before she passed. The lost was so hard.
One of the first things that I thought when we got MiLey was I'm going to miss her when she passes.
"Better to love and lost then never to loved at all". I'm thankful that I have MiLey .
I'm glad that everything went great for Heini .

Darlene and MiLey

[CloudClan]

As I read your post, I know just what you were feeling today witnessing that. It does make me feel so blessed by time right now because my furkids are all so young. I have been through the difficult days of losing a beloved pet and I am hoping those days are very far away for meat the moment, indeed, as they are for you and Heini.

But when I first joined this forum I had just lost my beloved Cloud. He was 15.5 years old. He was my first Maltese and so special to me. I have also lost Clancy, Clouseau, Cameo and Calypso. In some ways I think it gets harder to lose them each time because even as you learn to love another you know there will never be another that can truly take the place because they are all so unique and the relationship you have shared is momentous all on its own.

However, grieving for Clancy led me to Calypso and Cameo. Grieving for Cloud and Clouseau led me to Cadeau and grieving for Cameo and Calypso led me to Cadie and Cacia. Each of them have helped me to heal from the loss. I have been blessed to share my love and my joys, my sorrows and my tears with these most beautiful creatures. I cannot imagine life without them.